Walls

As I've grown up, I've grown apart from some of the people I once was the closest to. This makes me sad but it makes me happy at the same time. It saddens me to look back at all the memories and know that these people are gone from my life. These people who were such a big part of my life for a number of years. At the same time, I look at the situation and know that I am in a better place without them. When people you know become people you knew, when text messages and conversations stop, the friendship seems to be over. As I look back at this and wonder how it came to be, I think it started over a year ago. When I was going through the hardest personal time in my life, neither one noticed. Best friends should be able to tell when something's wrong. When I coached basketball for an entire season and you can't seem to make it to one of my games and no real excuse for not being there, true colors seem to shine through. When you lie about your relationship and cover things up because you think I'll look at you differently, #1- I probably will and #2- you're not a best friend. When you break plans with me to do something with someone else without any hesitation, you're not a best friend. And mostly, when we go two months without a single word, it makes me think we were never true friends to begin with. So.. as I look at where I was a year ago and where I am today, I feel like I have grown and seen how people grow apart at the same time. I'm not saying that I didn't make mistakes or that there is anyone to place blame on, but that it just happened. About a year ago, I built up a wall, a wall that wouldn't easily be broken. My trust was shattered in a lot of things and some people didn't care enough to break down that wall. I think the saying goes, let the chips fall where they may and that is exactly what has happened.