Prayer is the key to every closed door.
It seems like lately the only thing I've been trying to walk through are closed doors. One door closes and I'm really trying to look for that open door but just can't seem to find it. Even when I'm trying to push doors open in coaching and my career, they just get slammed back in my face. It's starting to become harder and harder to not get discouraged. How many times will I face failure before I get where I want to be? How many times will a school say 'no' before I tell myself 'no more'? How many times will I allow myself to get worked up and excited for an opportunity only to see it dissipate into nothing?
Possibly many times. Only God knows my future, scary as that seems sometimes. I will never know how many more times I will be told 'no' but I will continue to search for that person, that opportunity where I will hear 'yes.'
"Yes, Megan, you did it."
"Yes, Megan, you are the person we have chosen."
"Yes, Megan, you are doing the right thing."
God, I know that you are the only one who knows what my future holds. I just pray to become more like you, to treat others like you, to tell others about you and to use my life for you because that's what it is: a life for you. You are the beginning and the end. You are the way, the truth and the Life and only you know. Only you.
As I seek to become more Christ-like in my life, I hope that others will be affected and changed. Eventually, my day will be here, either to rise up and be counted in this life or to do so in my next one.
Amen.
